It has been two weeks…
I can’t say I didn’t grow weary—because I did.
Doubts started creeping in when HR told me that my visa would be cancelled the following week. I didn’t expect it to happen so suddenly. But then again, the enemy always finds a way to cripple us with fear, anxiety, and doubt.
So, what did I do?
I woke up at 9 AM, applied for jobs, read my Bible, wrote in my devotional notebook…
and then spent the rest of the day binge-watching on Netflix.
How did I prepare for the battle?
Honestly… I didn’t.
I even shortened my time with God in prayer.
Yep.
That was my reality.
And did I feel good?
No.
I felt drained, tired, and even more weary.
I stayed stuck in my thoughts, going back and forth:
“God will make a way. He gave me His Word.”
“Lord, why did You allow this to happen?”
It felt like a tug of war in my mind—believing God and doubting Him at the same time.
And I didn’t even realize it was another scheme of the enemy trying to weaken me… trying to make me give up.
But do you know something?
God is so gracious.
He lifted me out of that place.
He gave me a wake-up call.
Where?
In His Word.
I was reminded of Proverbs 9:10–12:
“Fear of the Lord is the foundation of wisdom.
Knowledge of the Holy One results in good judgment.
Wisdom will multiply your days and add years to your life.
If you become wise, you will be the one to benefit.
If you scorn wisdom, you will be the one to suffer.”
In that moment, I understood something deeper.
To fear the Lord is not to be afraid of Him—but to live in reverence, to never want to be far from Him.
Because wisdom comes from God.
And in difficult seasons, it’s not when we pull away—it’s when we draw closer—that we receive the wisdom we need.
In the waiting…
In the uncertainty…
In the moments where we don’t know what to do, where to go, or how life will unfold—
That’s where God meets us.
We often live as if we know how everything should go. We make plans, set goals, and expect things to fall into place.
But the truth is—we don’t know how our future will unfold.
Only God does.
And when things feel out of control, our instinct is to run away from Him.
But what if…
It’s actually His invitation to come closer?
To trust Him more.
To know Him deeper.
To witness His power at work in our lives—personally.
I learned that wisdom is built through obedience.
We may not be able to change our situation instantly.
But when we choose to come to God… to dwell in His presence in the middle of it—
He carries us through.
And what we go through becomes a testimony of His goodness and faithfulness.
The kind of lesson you never forget.
Waiting seasons are hard.
They come with spiritual battles—especially in the mind.
But we must remember this:
We are already victorious through the Lord Jesus Christ.
The enemy will try to convince you that you are defeated.
But no.
You are not.
He is defeated.
And you are more than a conqueror.
So keep fighting the good fight of faith.
God has a purpose for everything.
And one day soon, we will testify how He used our story to uplift others walking through the same season.
To be continued…